Thursday, July 30, 2009
Marc Goes Up The Hill To Fetch A Second Opinion...
We would be grateful if you would continue to pray for Marc. We are hoping that the tumor stays quiet in the next couple of weeks and doesn't give him any pain or complications. Also, that the remaining side effects from the last chemo regimen would go away. We are hoping that this time off will give him the chance to heal from chemotherapy and gain strength for whatever treatments or surgeries are on the horizon.
We remain so grateful for all of you. Thank you for shouldering our troubles with us. We feel so blessed to have such an amazing support network.
With love and gratitude...
Monday, July 27, 2009
A huddle and a break...
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6
We met with Marc's doctor this morning and went over his labs and CT scan results. We were fortunate to have our dear friend, Elo, with us to help with technical questions (see: http://griffithzoo.blogspot.com/2009/03/gift-of-knowledge.html). The four of us huddled for an hour, discussing the following results:
- His tumor marker is increasing, showing that the cancer is active.
- His CT scan did show a small progression. It is a bit larger and thicker than his CT scan in June.
- While the tumor is growing, it is not fast growing at this point. This will allow for Marc to rest before he resumes treatment.
- The chemotherapy treatment that he was taking previously is no longer effective.
So, what to do? For the next three to five weeks, Marc will get a break from treatment to allow his body to recover from the last nine rounds. From there, we are not sure. We are considering several options and will be getting more opinions. There is a second line of chemotherapy that is an option, there is a clinical trial that is a possibility, we will meet with a surgeon, and possibly make a trip to Seattle to the Fred Hutchinson Cancer Research Center. Each option has potential, but also risks. We will need a lot of wisdom in the next few weeks to determine what is the best course of treatment. Ultimately, this is Marc's decision.
As always, we would appreciate your prayers. We are both committed to figuring this thing out and leaving no stone unturned; however, with that comes a lot of appointments, reading, thinking, and discussing. I anticipate this could be mentally and physically gruelling for our family. Also, it will mean more logistics with the kids and farm. We would ask that you help us pray for direction, the stamina needed to get through this next stage, and a support system that won't be overly burdened.
Lastly, I want to thank Elo again for spending her morning with us. What a blessing to have a friend that is a doctor come to our appointment with us! She had great questions, gave us confidence, and encouraged us on a very difficult day. And, a big thanks to Melanie for watching Elo's kids, so that she could get away with us. It is truly taking a huge community of family and friends to get us through this. We remain humbled and amazed by God's great provision in our lives during this time.
With love and gratitude...
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Frustrating Update
We were told today that this does happen. The tumor, like everything else in the body, can grow resistant to certain medications and treatments. Basically his cancer has figured out how to beat this system. We are on to the next, but we were warned that after first line treatment, the success of the treatments becomes less likely. We need a miracle.
We are both taking this news hard. Marc is struggling with being back at the beginning and having made no progress. Nine miserable treatments without remission. I have no better word than brutal. For me....well...I am devastated. Holding it together today around the kids was an emotional juggling act. We are both having to dig really deep right now.
We would appreciate your prayers in the next few days while we try to figure this out. We would love it if the lab results were a fluke and today's blood draw shows a miraculous decrease. Anyhow, prayers and support right now would be most appreciated. I know many of you have a lot of questions and are wanting more detail; however, we aren't prepared right now to talk on the phone or in person. It's just too hard. I will try to update here as I learn more and will do my best to answer everyone's questions and hear suggestions. If you have either, please email us or post here.
With much love and gratitude...
Chemo Day
With love and gratitude....
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Another Year as Mrs. Griffith
I have worn this simple ring for twelve years now. For our culture, twelve years seems like a miracle, but for me it seems to have flown by. I remember how shiny and glittering the little band was on our wedding day. It seemed heavy, though, and the weight of the gold did not feel natural. A lot like our first year or so of marriage -- getting used to sharing space, personal items, a new name, and each other's habits. Eventually, though, wearing the ring and sharing my life became natural. Yes, this ring has seen much in twelve short years. I've worn it through pregnancies, house construction, a house fire, adventures with livestock, holidays and work days. Now it accompanies me in days of illness and uncertainty. It's not shiny and new any longer, the band is nicked and scratched, and the stones aren't clean from working outside, so they certainly don't glitter. But, I like it better this way. I can look at it and know all it has been through and all our marriage has survived. We have been through a lot together.
Today I want to thank my sweet husband for another year of marriage. My friend asked me the other day if knowing what grief I know now would I have still chosen to marry Marc. I wouldn't have changed a thing. I would not have traded all the time I have been able to enjoy with him. He is an upstanding man, a brilliant thinker, a loving daddy, a hard worker, and most of all a loving husband. I couldn't have made a better choice. He is my best friend and I am grateful and humbled that I have been able to mature alongside this wonderful man. He has put up with a lot being married to me. Thankfully, he is a good leader and is very patient.
I am hopeful that we will have many more anniversaries and more adventures together. If my prayers are answered, I anticipate my ring will get more battered and worn. I also anticipate that my finger will always carry the remarkable indentation from my band. But, that's just fine with me. They will just be permanent reminders of more wonderful adventures and treasured years together. I can't think of anything more that I could hope for!
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Update...Or Not So Much
Thank you all for the love you show us on a daily basis. We are grateful beyond words for all of you.
With love and gratitude...
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Nine
As they do every week, they took a blood draw and will have his tumor marker results on Thursday. My prayer this week is that the new medication will drive the marker down. The past three results have been about the same, hovering at 85.
I am going to ask a favor of all of you that frequent this place. Would you pray for Marc and this test? Would you pray that the tumor starts responding again to the chemotherapy and that we can, once again, see a result on Thursday that would be an encouragement to us all? And, if you could pray that this treatment cycle would not be as physically brutal as the last round, we would be grateful. He has three more treatments to endure before his body gets a break. He needs our encouragement and support more than ever. But, most of all, he needs some extra prayers this week.
I will meet you all back here in this place on Thursday with the results and an update.
With love and gratitude.